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feelings

forecast

abby mumford

the forecast calls for ALL THE SNOW and lack of all the power, so i’ve been making lots of ice.

if the power does go out, i’ll need to fill my cooler and thermal bag with cold products and the extra ice will help them to think big, to think like a refrigerator. i also plan to cook a large batch of pasta tonight, smear in some pesto, toss in some peppers and meatballs, and eat it cold if i lose power. a “go bag” will be packed because plan A.2 / B is to trudge through the blizzard and hang out at C’s house because a blizzard when you live alone? lonely and sad and cold.

i also bought nutella because every forecasted blizzard deserves a treat.

i’ve mentally picked out which books i’ll be reading if i don’t have power and if work is canceled.

and so, the wait for snow for action for boredom for fear for laughs for cold for loneliness for anxiety for a dirty world smoothed out by white begins.

feelings

friday facts

abby mumford

while cleaning out my VM box, i heard a message from maga explaining that i’d missed her because she’d been out at the park watching the sunset. it appears my love of sunsets is genetic.

i finished the sequel to THE ROSIE PROJECT which is called THE ROSIE EFFECT and it was every inch as delicious as the first book. it’s best when listened to as audio because the narrator really brings the quirky character to life. other favorite audiobooks? THE SCORPIO RACES, THE WITNESS, TINY BEAUTIFUL THINGS, and METRO GIRL.

this article on foreign idioms translated literally. <3

feelings

Rx

abby mumford

sometimes hitting “call” is the hardest button because the vulnerability needed was choking me. i hit the button with shaking fingers and was met with kindness.

“talk to yourself like you would a friend. you wouldn’t tell your friend to eat junk or stay up at all hours or keep doing the thing(s) that are stressing them out.”

“just because you disappoint someone doesn’t mean you did anything wrong. sometimes it’s on them.”

“it’s a response. tell your body you’re in control. it’s okay to feel, but remind yourself the overdose of feelings isn’t necessary or permanent.”

“this is a good step, but there are phases. you need to find your new normal and if you find you need to go back, that is more than okay. you’re okay.”

the advice she gave me was heartfelt, hard won, and honest, but it was more about the way she prioritized me in between her hectic hours as a mom, a wife, and a woman. it’s not often i reach out, so i was fortunate she grabbed hold because the dose of love she prescribed was filled and taken over the course of one phone call.

feelings

dating advice

abby mumford

this just in from a coworker:

“[Retired Coworker] and I were talking about books we’re reading and he said in book 2 of Karl Ove Knausgaard’s My Struggle there’s this scene where Knausgaard is talking on his phone on a train and the train lurches forward and the phone flies out of his hand and into the purse of the woman across from him. It turns out the woman, and the man she is with, is an Israeli spy, so they think he’s dropped his phone in her bag on purpose to spy on them. So [Retired Coworker] said, “That’d be a pretty good way to meet someone.”

Just saying, if you don’t like your current options for boyfriend shopping, this could be a new one.

*cautiously adds to list of things to try*

general

grumble grumble grumble

abby mumford

that moment when your landlord calls to say he’s at your apartment and has “tried everything” but can’t find the leak under the kitchen sink and when you explain exactly what you’ve witnessed (left side, the horizontal diamond shaped knob) and he goes “oh the hot water.” how is only running the cold water “trying everything”?

that moment when you’ve offered on four condos and have been beat out on all four by cash offers or offers that waive all contingencies and you wonder if you’ll ever be able to afford a place to call your own where you deal with the leaks under the kitchen sink on your own.

that moment you count the days and figure out it’s been 35 days of your car in the shop having been listed at totaled, not totaled, again and again, and you wonder when the madness will stop?

that moment you work up a sweat pulling on freshly laundered jeans just to remember your local gym is closed for the (extended university) holiday and you work up a sweat pulling on freshly laundered jeans.

that moment where tuesday is wearing its monday costume.